"but a small moment"

Almost immediately after receiving my call I was bombarded with trial after trial each one being increasingly more difficult. After I would think that I finally made it through one and so many good things were happening and amazing people were coming into my life, another trial would hit me like a sack of bricks. Life has been the toughest it has ever been for me.
Most recently I was dating someone and things seemed to be going great at first, but then everything started rolling downhill and everything was an argument and we both weren't really happy anymore as much as we both want to deny it. Fast sunday had come and i needed to know what Heavenly Father wanted me to do about it. I got my answer but I really really didn't want to do it. So I fudged it as much as i could and said let's date till I leave then we will break up for the time of my mission.... that didn't feel right either. :( I was trying so hard to make the best of it. I really was but from my point of view it didn't look like he was. One day it hit me even harder that when it ends... that's the end. No more us. I cried for days. My heart hurt so much, but even then I knew that I needed to show my Heavenly Father that I would do whatever He wanted me to do. So i knew what I had to do.

But first here is a little advice if things are tough in a relationship:

1. Don't have serious conversations over text.
                        I wanted to talk in person and he didn't. I finally caved in to what he wanted. So no matter how much they don't want to see you or you don't want to see them, force it to happen in person.

2. Don't have serious conversations in the middle of the night.
                        Things get tough in a relationship, whatever that relationship is. If things are getting heated and its late, remember, IT'S LATE! Emotions are heightened when you are tired. If you have to, go to bed angry. Your head will be clearer in the morning.

So needless to say our relationship ended on the worst note possible and my heart was completely and utterly broken. He just stopped talking to me and gave me no closure. I've been trying to find closure myself but it is difficult. I apologized for the way things ended and I still have yet to hear from him. But you know, if this is how he needs to get through this, I need to respect it no matter how hurtful it is.
It doesn't matter how many times you apologize to someone. If they don't want to be in your life, they'll make sure they aren't. But you can't let the tears that come from losing that person bring you down, let them make you strong in the realization that God will mend your heart and make it whole again. A broken heart is real. But it isn't permanent.

I plead with God everyday to take this pain from me and everyday he sends someone to help me, or to cheer me up :)

I know that our Heavenly Father hears and answers each and everyone of our prayers. Ultimately, I know that He has something great in store for us. We just need to submit ourselves to the will of our Heavenly Father, maybe give up something, and remember that He knows what is best for us and read what is said in Doctrine and Covenants section 121 verse 7 and 8:

"My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;"

The Lord is with you :) Trust in him :)

Mission Bound

I don't even know where to begin!

So let's start in September. I decided in September that I was officially going to serve a mission. After much prayer I knew that was what I needed to prepare for :) It wasn't easy getting everyone on board in my decision, which made life difficult. But I pressed forward anyway. And on October 3rd my bishop dropped of a packet of papers to begin.

I was going to have to wait till March to turn them in because my birthday is in June and you have to be 21 to serve a mission as a Sister Missionary :) Little did I know that only 4 days later the Prophet Thomas S. Monson stood up in General Conference and announced the lowering of the age change for girls to 19 and boys to 18!! I didn't have to wait to turn my papers in! I was overcome with joy at that moment knowing that God was preparing me for this in what I thought was "early" and ended up being perfect.
The Lord's timing is perfect.


Three weeks later I submitted my papers to the First Presidency and Quorum of the 12 Apostles to receive my assignment. I was soooo excited! Luckily I only had to wait 2 loooong weeks for it to come haha The day it arrived I spent the day with my  good friend Courtney Cox who was also receiving her call that day! We went to the temple, studied the scriptures, cleaned, ate and freaked out :) and it came!!

After another loooong day everyone gathered at our separate homes to watch us open our calls :)

I read carefully:
"Dear Sister Adams:

You are hereby called to serve as a missionary of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. You are assigned to labor in the Australia Melbourne Mission....You should report to the Provo MTC on Wednesday March 27, 2012... English language."

I FREAKED OUT!!! Australia had never crossed my mind! I surprisingly enough did not cry. I was just so overcome with joy :)

Courtney and I will be entering the MTC on the same day!!

I went through the Logan Temple for the first time to receive the Endowment on November 23rd 2012 :) One of the happiest days of my life so far. The spirit is so strong in the temple :)

I now only have 35 days till I become an official missionary of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and I cannot wait for that day :)